你们才是伤害我最深的人

我现在才知道有一个懂你的人在身边是多么重要的事。他不需要听你长篇大论就能知道你的心情。这么一个人很可贵，也很难得。

今天妈妈在吃饭时不小心伤害了我。虽然说她是无意的但伤还是存在。就像烙印在心里一样。

她问：“你们比比看你的无名指跟食指哪个比较长？如果食指比较长就代表你的自尊心很强。你们看我的食指比我的无名指长哦！”
于是我轻快的看着我的手：“妈，但我的无名指比较长耶。这代表什么？”
妈妈不信的看着我的手指说；“哦。每个妓女都是无名指比食指长的。”

以上的那句话如果我没听错应该就是说我是妓女吧。

“妈。你在说什么？！ 你说我是妓女？？？” 我忘了她的答复是什么。但绝对不是道歉。到底我前世造了什么孽？为何会有这样说自己的女儿的妈呢？回到了家我还是无法忘记她的话。

爸爸回来了。“爸，我跟你说妈今天跟我说了什么。” 就这样我重续了一遍。但结果爸爸就笑了两声，被妈叫去看马票的成绩。天啊！！我一直以为爸爸会了解我的痛苦但原来只我的痴心妄想。我，何映洁在他们心中原来什么都不是，什么都不如。我很想否认这一切但原来没那么简单，没那么容易。我的价值只不过是妓女，连马票也不如。

我很懦弱，很无助。每次只能一个人安静的哭泣，过后变回开朗的自己。我很需要某个人的肩膀，给与我呵护。但那人不会出现。我想憎恨他们。但我不能。你要如何恨一些不知道他们自己在做什么的人呢？

这世界最可恶的人类不是那些卑鄙无耻之人，而是这些无法衡量自己行动的无知好人。这只不过是一个案例。妈妈没用大脑的举动伤害了我无数次。我想我以后能习惯的。一定要习惯。

我由衷地希望如果有一天我死了，爸妈能看我在这里写的一切。人生虽然已过了一大半但还是希望他们能改。让大姐跟弟弟能不受他们的无知伤害。

泪也流够了。我会好起来的。希望我的明天会更好。

Yipee Yayaaaaa

Yipee Yipee Yaya, Yipee Yaya.

I survived the stressful exam week! ~pat pat.
And I survived the never ending job hunting! ~ more pats.

Will be working with Johnson again. Best news ever. (:

从新出发

让我放下一切找回自我，回到最原始的我。。。

我知道你会祝福我的。就象我怎么放开你一样。。。。。

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人不都说明天会更好吗? 怎么我的明天好像越过越没光?昨晚我印映机宣告死亡。但也还没查出死亡原因。 只知道昨晚要它为我服务时, 白是它唯一知道的颜色。在这个紧要关头,面对着无穷的压力下, 它既然没能陪我走完考试的路途。靠,我还真想把它给丢了。算了算了,反正今天晚上就是要给它动手术。 希望它能死而复活。 也该停止我这永无止境的牢骚了。

P.S 我还是相信我的明天 会更好!!!

March Update!

12th March 2012, daddy's birthday celebration! We had dinner at Jack's place, one of our favorite restaurant.  We gave our dad a surprise "cow" cake after dinner as dessert. He was shocked! this proved our surprise success. Hurray! (:

 Fire steak he ordered covered his face with smoke!!

 Cute cow cake. Vanilla sponge cake.

 March 2012, belated celebration for our 2nd anniversary. A piggy massager as present!! Love this cute little thing. Notice his under size shirt? thats cos his body is too long!

 Custom make Agar jelly Cai Yan. Not a big fan of cai yan but this is so lovely! I ate 1/4 of it.There goes my dieting.

Multi-layer-coloured jelly! 

farewell salsa 11/12

post JDC party at dance studio. party suppose to start at 6.30pm but people came strolling in at 7. finally we couldnt wait any longer that we just started with the pizzas. time flies especially when you are having fun. going crazy with olivia and chengyee is hilarious. imagine girls jumping around with pizza in a hand and camera in another. hahas. its it fun???! olivia is my new found mate in salsa. we faced the same outcast problem and since then we stick together like semi twins. hahs.

suppose to leave together with olivia and chengyee but got dragged to stay a little longer. had a super long gossiping, talking, and advicing session. karmen and kim really went all out to ask me to stay. they say the vice chairperson and chairperson are really nice and i should talk to them more and help them in their workload. well, it always require two hands to clap. so i really have to feel that she is trying to know me better. on my side, i am tying more and more people down, hoping these people will stay until we are done with itsc. tough but know we can do it.

PHOTOS PHOTOS

Elijah, my dance partner! As sexy as ever!

Current En Snyc Chairperson

Kim, one of the sensible ones.

Still the innocent looking ones

Where all the pretty girls gathered

  

Cute Guest Dancers!

Nick- Y! hahas, dance captain.

Sheng Jiao and Cheng Yee

My best sister!

Big hug for Nigel! Bleah... 

Need to thank my family for being to supportive!

My dad! Love him so much! It must be hard to see his girl growing up  and dance like that~!

      

Lastly, My favorite photo. (: